I’m not gonna lie. The last year has been really tough. Maybe that’s an understatement.

I’m not going to tell the story again. Maybe later, but not now. Most people don’t know what to say, so they respond out of habit with “I’m so sorry”. Others know that they don’t know what to say, so they don’t say anything. I’d rather hear something than nothing, but it seems like there are much better words that can be said. Then there’s this minority of people that know just what to say and how to say it. It’s funny because usually the right thing isn’t an “I’m sorry” aloe, it’s something that stirs emotions even more. The last thing I want is for people to feel sorry for me.

“So,” you ask the question, “are you going to mope around like this forever.” Yes. But you probably won’t know it. One of these days, you’ll see me and you won’t remember that this happened. Then you’ll say something that will bring it all back and you’ll feel horrible, but I’ll be fine because I’ve given myself the chance to grieve properly. Let me save you the trouble. Don’t walk on eggshells around me. If you say something that brings up the past, it brings up the past. Sure it will sting for a bit, but I can handle it. I’d rather feel pain from the past than forget it altogether.

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